[Deckerd squeezes Gunmax's hand right back, relieved beyond words that he is still able to make Gunmax laugh. He might be responsible for every other part of this situation, but at least he could still pull Gunmax out of the tailspin he'd shoved him into]
Having the opportunity to spend more time with you isn't such a hardship. Nightmares will just be another part of what that means.
[He then glances at the bed as he gently guides Gunmax into sitting on the edge of it and laughs a little self consciously. He starts to fidget with his hands until the welds pull painfully and he immediately stops]
All these months later and I am still far more used to recharging as a patrol car or in a cradle, rather than whatever this is, so I am glad you have grown comfortable with it. Should I pull up your chair, or...?
Spend a few months sleeping on the streets and anything is luxury. Cradle,
bed, doesn't much make a difference to me now.
[ He looks up at Deckerd, amusement dimming the glow of his optics into
something soft and barely there. He takes one of Deckerd's hands and kisses
his palm gently, lovingly. A moment later, he tugs Deckerd onto the bed
next to him. ]
You need to recharge too. And I'll sleep better if you're right beside me.
[ An excuse to cuddle? Perhaps. But Gunmax isn't above such tactics. ]
[Deckerd starts to open his mouth to apologize when Gunmax takes his hand and-]
[And he-]
[Deckerd gapes, his finials twitching, but he has entirely forgotten what he was going to say so he just sort of aimlessly stutters as he's tugged onto the bed. His sensors immediately register a difference in his internal temperature in his cheeks, but it is fine, everything is fine. Added to that... It has been longer than some would have liked since he last recharged, and now that he's lying down and isn't moving, it is a lot harder to ignore]
[He resets his voxcoder, but his voice still comes out more than a little unsteady for reasons he is sure have very little to do with being so near to Gunmax]
I have never once needed recharge since I was first activated, but if it will do you good, I suppose. [He says it teasingly, but he is already leaning into Gunmax. He keeps the hand Gunmax had kissed closer to his chest as if he can keep it like a secret, even though nothing stays forever. He knows that. He understands. But... maybe the universe can be convinced to forget that for a little while, so he can pretend]
[ Gunmax laughs and throws his arm around Deckerd, pulling him in close. He tucks his head underneath Deckerd's chin and nestles in, relaxing. The faint whine of his systems fades almost instantly, soothed by Deckerd's presence and closeness. He sighs and lets himself go limp. ]
Thank you. For coming back, and for staying with me.
[ He murmurs it, the words half buried in Deckerd's neck. ]
[Deckerd wants to make promises in this moment, but he can't. They would both know they would be lies. He wants to stay like this forever, but he can't]
[He can stay here right now, however, so he does. So he trails his fingers in those aimless, comforting patterns from earlier and allows himself to actually relax for the first time all day. He curls around Gunmax and the tension drains away from him as if he'd sprung a leak somewhere, until all that is left is warmth and the soft hum of Gunmax's systems against him]
I love you, too. [He says it back just as quietly, already drowsy, and nuzzles the top of Gunmax's head with his cheek] I'll be here when you wake up. It's okay to sleep. It's safe. You won't be alone with your nightmares.
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Date: 2024-08-24 02:22 pm (UTC)Having the opportunity to spend more time with you isn't such a hardship. Nightmares will just be another part of what that means.
[He then glances at the bed as he gently guides Gunmax into sitting on the edge of it and laughs a little self consciously. He starts to fidget with his hands until the welds pull painfully and he immediately stops]
All these months later and I am still far more used to recharging as a patrol car or in a cradle, rather than whatever this is, so I am glad you have grown comfortable with it. Should I pull up your chair, or...?
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Date: 2024-08-24 02:44 pm (UTC)[ Gunmax slants a smile, wry though it is. ]
Spend a few months sleeping on the streets and anything is luxury. Cradle, bed, doesn't much make a difference to me now.
[ He looks up at Deckerd, amusement dimming the glow of his optics into something soft and barely there. He takes one of Deckerd's hands and kisses his palm gently, lovingly. A moment later, he tugs Deckerd onto the bed next to him. ]
You need to recharge too. And I'll sleep better if you're right beside me.
[ An excuse to cuddle? Perhaps. But Gunmax isn't above such tactics. ]
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Date: 2024-08-24 03:47 pm (UTC)[And he-]
[Deckerd gapes, his finials twitching, but he has entirely forgotten what he was going to say so he just sort of aimlessly stutters as he's tugged onto the bed. His sensors immediately register a difference in his internal temperature in his cheeks, but it is fine, everything is fine. Added to that... It has been longer than some would have liked since he last recharged, and now that he's lying down and isn't moving, it is a lot harder to ignore]
[He resets his voxcoder, but his voice still comes out more than a little unsteady for reasons he is sure have very little to do with being so near to Gunmax]
I have never once needed recharge since I was first activated, but if it will do you good, I suppose. [He says it teasingly, but he is already leaning into Gunmax. He keeps the hand Gunmax had kissed closer to his chest as if he can keep it like a secret, even though nothing stays forever. He knows that. He understands. But... maybe the universe can be convinced to forget that for a little while, so he can pretend]
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Date: 2024-08-24 04:53 pm (UTC)[ Gunmax laughs and throws his arm around Deckerd, pulling him in close. He tucks his head underneath Deckerd's chin and nestles in, relaxing. The faint whine of his systems fades almost instantly, soothed by Deckerd's presence and closeness. He sighs and lets himself go limp. ]
Thank you. For coming back, and for staying with me.
[ He murmurs it, the words half buried in Deckerd's neck. ]
I love you.
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Date: 2024-08-24 06:31 pm (UTC)[He can stay here right now, however, so he does. So he trails his fingers in those aimless, comforting patterns from earlier and allows himself to actually relax for the first time all day. He curls around Gunmax and the tension drains away from him as if he'd sprung a leak somewhere, until all that is left is warmth and the soft hum of Gunmax's systems against him]
I love you, too. [He says it back just as quietly, already drowsy, and nuzzles the top of Gunmax's head with his cheek] I'll be here when you wake up. It's okay to sleep. It's safe. You won't be alone with your nightmares.