[Deckerd keeps his optics offline, and shudders out a slow vent, then another. He thinks of how the last conversation he had with the Gunmax from his own side of the universes had been... forgettable. Ordinary. He isn't even sure that they'd properly said goodbye to each other, and that makes his fuel pump seize up in his chest. He pulls in a long, slow vent and lets it out. Another]
It will be fine, because we will make it fine. You cannot stop bad things from altering the course of your life, but we can control parts of the moment we are living through right now. [He pauses, and winds their fingers together. Perhaps a bit tighter and more desperate than he'd intended, but the smile he offers Gunmax is just as warm as ever] And this moment? Has you in it. Has you saying things we both know I don't believe, but what I do believe in is you and your heart. So... perhaps I do, after all.
[Deckerd makes another small noise that only gets smaller as he clutches at Gunmax, as if that could keep either of them from flying apart into pieces at the slightest touch]
I don't know that I can-
[He tucks his face closer and clumsily echoes the kiss Gunmax had given him on his helmet's wing, this time against whatever part of Gunmax's plating he can reach. He hadn't known you could do kisses in other places, the same way he hadn't expected Gunmax to bring him tumbling down without a sound]
I'll try. For you, I'll always try. I don't know that I'll succeed, but... For you.
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It will be fine, because we will make it fine. You cannot stop bad things from altering the course of your life, but we can control parts of the moment we are living through right now. [He pauses, and winds their fingers together. Perhaps a bit tighter and more desperate than he'd intended, but the smile he offers Gunmax is just as warm as ever] And this moment? Has you in it. Has you saying things we both know I don't believe, but what I do believe in is you and your heart. So... perhaps I do, after all.
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[ Gunmax huffed out a quiet laugh and pressed a soft kiss to Deckerd's helm. Just barely brushing over his plating. ]
I've proven you wrong before, patokaa. I can do it again.
[ He tangled his fingers with Deckerd's, squeezing back just as firmly. ]
You're the smartest mech I know, Deckerd. But you're also the most likely to overthink. So just...
[ He made a small sound, an almost frustrated one, and pressed his face into Deckerd's helm, hiding himself away. ]
Just stay with me in the current moment, okay? Don't go running into the future or the past. Just... Stay with me.
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I don't know that I can-
[He tucks his face closer and clumsily echoes the kiss Gunmax had given him on his helmet's wing, this time against whatever part of Gunmax's plating he can reach. He hadn't known you could do kisses in other places, the same way he hadn't expected Gunmax to bring him tumbling down without a sound]
I'll try. For you, I'll always try. I don't know that I'll succeed, but... For you.