[ Now they know. Just another flag he needs to add to his growing list because one wrong move in an already sensitive state sends him spiraling and--
How is he supposed to do his job like this? How is he supposed to keep Deckerd safe? Or anyone for that matter?
He knows it isn't fair or right of him to think of himself that way but he can't help it. Now that the panic is fading all that's left is annoyance at himself, at the situation, at letting his guard down enough to get blindsided by someone turning off their optics of all things--
He takes a shuddering vent and leans into Deckerd. It's okay. They're okay. Just breathe. Just breathe. ]
Feels like one.
[ It feels like failing. It always feels like failing. His fear was what led to-- was what meant--
He slams the memory files shut and shoves them down, down, down deep into his processor. No more today. No more. ]
no subject
[ Now they know. Just another flag he needs to add to his growing list because one wrong move in an already sensitive state sends him spiraling and--
How is he supposed to do his job like this? How is he supposed to keep Deckerd safe? Or anyone for that matter?
He knows it isn't fair or right of him to think of himself that way but he can't help it. Now that the panic is fading all that's left is annoyance at himself, at the situation, at letting his guard down enough to get blindsided by someone turning off their optics of all things--
He takes a shuddering vent and leans into Deckerd. It's okay. They're okay. Just breathe. Just breathe. ]
Feels like one.
[ It feels like failing. It always feels like failing. His fear was what led to-- was what meant--
He slams the memory files shut and shoves them down, down, down deep into his processor. No more today. No more. ]