[Deckerd's face twists into a puzzled expression but he doesn't turn his optics back on yet, preoccupied with putting together what his sensors were telling him. Gunmax's hands were shaking, he was making noise, he-]

[Deckerd's optics flare back on so quickly that the initial flash must have been too bright, he knew it was too bright without Gunmax's shades-]

[He is up and on his feet and drawing Gunmax up even as he half collapses into him] I'm alive! [He says fiercely, or tries to, but his voice cracks with desperation of his own] I'm alive, I'm alive, it's okay. You don't have to-

[He turns his face to bury it against Gunmax's helmet, then again to press kiss after kiss against his cheek, each one punctuated by the same words]

I'm alive, I'm alive, do you feel this? I'm alive.