[ Gunmax doesn't like that Deckerd feels shame. The shame isn't Deckerd's to feel. Deckerd works in security for Godsake, of course, he's going to go off when someone is missing. Of course, he's going to get into dangerous situations. Gunmax knows that. He can't spiral into a panic every time Deckerd takes that chance at getting hurt.
But before he can voice that, Deckerd turns his optics off and the noise Gunmax lets out is almost feral. It's a high-pitched whine of overtaxed systems, the click-click-click of his vocoder shorting out and resetting. He curls his fingers around Deckerd's cheek and brings his other hand to Deckerd's shoulder.
Alive. Warm. A physical reminder.
It doesn't stop the ghostly overlay of a corpse at his feet.
He can't speak. He can't ask Deckerd to look at him. There is only the tremble in his hands, in his limbs; there is only the shaking of each vent as he struggles and struggles to draw air over his too-warm systems. Please, please, he can't do this again. He can't see ghosts where living mechs sit. ]
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Date: 2024-08-23 11:35 pm (UTC)[ Gunmax doesn't like that Deckerd feels shame. The shame isn't Deckerd's to feel. Deckerd works in security for Godsake, of course, he's going to go off when someone is missing. Of course, he's going to get into dangerous situations. Gunmax knows that. He can't spiral into a panic every time Deckerd takes that chance at getting hurt.
But before he can voice that, Deckerd turns his optics off and the noise Gunmax lets out is almost feral. It's a high-pitched whine of overtaxed systems, the click-click-click of his vocoder shorting out and resetting. He curls his fingers around Deckerd's cheek and brings his other hand to Deckerd's shoulder.
Alive. Warm. A physical reminder.
It doesn't stop the ghostly overlay of a corpse at his feet.
He can't speak. He can't ask Deckerd to look at him. There is only the tremble in his hands, in his limbs; there is only the shaking of each vent as he struggles and struggles to draw air over his too-warm systems. Please, please, he can't do this again. He can't see ghosts where living mechs sit. ]