Gunmax, I apologize for making this the first message I am sending you, especially after-

[A pause]

Shadowmaru has not responded to either my own messages or Kagerou's in months. I fear that it is my own fault, that the method of my arrival has made him-

[Another pause. Deckerd releases a quiet vent, then another]

I suppose what I am truly asking is...

What do you think it would take for Shado to answer again? I don't- I do not expect him to answer on my own behalf anymore. Whatever I did, it seems it is too broken to mend. But Kagerou needs him. That matters. That is important.

I do not always understand why you or Shado or anyone do the things that you do, and I just thought that... maybe the version of him you knew... maybe there would be some insight you could give me. Anything. Because if I cannot fix or solve what I have done, I at least-

I at least want to leave things better for Kagerou than the ruin I created.